point a. this is for satelIites
point b. if you arent her,you dont have any reason to give a fuck about this journal.Is me talking about a person I care about,so yeah.Move on.Unless you are her then read it I guess.I dont know
point c. I suck at expressing myself.So yeah,this journal may not(probably not) actually tell how I feel about her.I try my best to express myself in typing,but yeah is obvious I really....really suck at it.So yeah,this journal wont do it justice since I suck at expressing myself and even at putting my thoughts into words.
point d. despise the fact I suck at expressing myself,I will at least try to get the message across.
NOW LETS GET CHEESY SHALL WE
...I dont know where to start wow.Like....I dont know.Is sorta like yesterday we were strangers and now we are bffs.How quick time passes ech.
OK SO I meet her actually by searching for some HU fanart(and by that,I mean actual decent fanart) and her stlye sorta caught my eye like "woah this is so cool" and then I browsed though her gallery and like.
I wanted to slap myself for not being nearly as good LIKE FUCKING ICE CREAM ON A CONE HER ART WAS,IS AND WILL BE SO GORGEOUS I CANT OK
so I though
"hey she seems cool maybe I should actually post a comment on her profile since why not I need to work on overcoming my shyness and I really like meeting new people lets do this"
And I did it
And I didnt actually expected her to respond or to talk with me more than 2 times
but she did
and like,we exchanged skypes and like woah
we found we have a hella lot in common
SURE,DIFFERENCES TOO BUT OH WELL
and like I cant imagine my life without her at this point
She means so fucking much to me like
she is the fucking perfect friend
and like she didnt put me down for my differences even when we barely talked like
for instance I love MLP:FIM and I like Eminem
and she hates both of those and she never touched me in a verbal way on either of them
which NOT everybody does
specially when tbh,Im a asshole at the MLP:FiM part since I just feel like Im shoving it down her throat
like I dont do it on intention I just...ugh.
but like,she saved me
no Im not kidding without her I could be dead by now
so yeah I p much owe her my life technically
but just...SERIOUSLY I CANT PUT INTO WORDS HOW MUCH SHE MEANS TO ME
also like,she inspires me greatly
to become a better artist(EVEN THO WHEN I SEE HER ART I FEEL THE URGE TO NEVER PICK A PENCIL EVER AGAIN AND YET I DO IT SINCE I HOPE I WILL BE ONE DAY AT LEAST HALF THE GOOD SHE IS)
....and to become a better person(im a asshole compared to her tbh,in many,many ways)
so...yeah,sure we have differences.Who doesnt?
but we have things in common too
including the fact we both care about each other <3 (ISNT XANDRA JUST THE MOST CHEESY THING EVER AW AW)
so yeah I want to thank her for what she did,for what she does and for what she will do
Im a asshole tbh,and the fact that you pull up with all of my bullshit already makes you amazing(MIND YOU,NOT EVERYBODY IS CAPABLE OF PUTTING UP WITH MY SHIT,SO CONGRATS)
again<I cant tell you in words how much you mean to me
but you do
just seeing you online on skype makes me happier
because I know there is a chance
I will chat with you
and that alone makes me happy <3
you re beautiful,amazing and just overall a fucking great person
and I dont deserve a blessing such as you are
but like,even if I cant express how much I care about you in words
I really,really,really REALLY do
and I will always
Xandra luvs her Grump Chancellor
She does <3
///now that we are done FOR NOW with my cheesiness
thanks again dude,for everything